date: october second, 2024

subject: grey houses

update on the backpack situation: the original was cancelled, but i ordered a new one that is (allegedly) arriving tomorrow-ish. let's hope it actually shows up so i'm not forced to carry a kånken around when i move speaking of moving, i have more listings to deal with, but i find myself more and more disillusioned with the prospect of finding a place that not only has what i need, but also what i want. i know the typical method is to find only what you absolutely need in a place, but i figure if i'm spending more money, i might as well get what i like. i'm the one stuck living there for like a year, you guys aren't!

i recently wrapped up reading book 1 of 4 in this series i loved in middle school, and it feels much more important now that i'm older and can grasp the gravity of the moral issues found. unravel, by neil shusterman, is a (i think) young adult fiction about three teenagers sentenced to be unraveled-- a compromise made by both pro-choice and pro-life armies during the heartland war. as their fight to survive becomes more and more desperate, we come to see the remains of a new world that has been borne from their actions. it was an amazing first installment, and i've just started the sequel, unwholly, which is pretty intriguing so far! so much happens in so little time, you forget about the page count and immerse yourself more and more.
i also started the handmaid's tale by margaret atwood. so far, i enjoy it decently, but i can tell preemptively i won't like it enough to order the sequel. here's to hoping i'll be wrong, though.

as the weather starts to cool off, i find myself worrying about my annual october-november "death" of sorts. each year i get more and more accomplishments, and as the saying goes, the bigger they are the harder they fall. i'm hoping i have the sufficient skills and support system to keep myself not only safe but also happy during this upcoming period, but i know if i fail i'll be okay. this year is all about change and good fortune, and i know for a fact i've secured it.
hoping for more blog changes soon, but quite honestly the second most boring thing in the world for me, aside from cleaning my dog's ears and paws, is coding. i have no passion for it, no skill for it, and no love for it. it simply is a means to an end for me. while i'm glad i figured it out prior to deciding to major in cs for uni, i'm still annoyed i have a blog where i fucking hate having to code in every little thing. when the new year comes, i hope to have my shit together, or at least have some form of consistency with updates.

last but not least, i can at least say with certainty that i no longer have a crush! i'm the rizzler or whatever

this month, trying to do more of that r.e.p.o.r.t thingy, so we'll see how many entries i end up publishing with it included (knowing myself, probably only this one)
so far, i'm reading... unwholly, by neil shusterman!
so far, i'm eating... nothing new; the arrival of my cookbook signals more cooking in the coming weeks/months.
so far, i'm playing... 90 day fiancé-- the new season is so much worse than usual lel
so far, i'm obsessing... over my wishlist for my new place. too much to buy, so few choices, too many options, not enough time.
so far, i'm recommending... taking time to be introspective and stay away from weirdos. so many people want to fight for no good reason; don't take the bait
so far, i'm treating... myself to more sleep, and getting work done earlier so i don't have the added stress of deadlines for my day.

see you guys next time!!